What keeps you up at night? – Living with big Dreams

“A dream isn’t something that you have when you are asleep,it is the very thing that does not let you sleep. “

I never understood this the first time I read it . When you are a child your dreams are simpler. There is nothing to stop you and most importantly you are not afraid of failiure.

But now that you are all grown up. You know failure exists and you are terrified of it.  Still there is a flickering flame inside you that you cannot ignore. There is something that you know that if you don’t do you will die a sad death.

What is it? It is something that you need  to do otherwise all of this would mean nothing to you! Dreams – Peculiar Mysteries these rascals . They can drive anyone insane.

It is important to know  that all dreams are unique that  your dream is your own only and nothing can come close to what you can accomplish with it. In fact your dreams are one of the few things that differentiate you  from 8 billion others out there.

Dreams don’t come with expiration date. It is not too late to start that Novel. However dreams do have a trait of altering. I do not have the same dream as I did 10 years ago (thank god!) It is okay change  your Dream.  No one gets it right in the first try anyway. Change it as many times as you like till you find the right one.

There is not much difference between being in Love and Dreaming actually. When you find the right one you gotta hold on to it.

It is alright if you haven’t found it yet as long as you are out there looking for it.

Yes it keeps you up all night. Yes it is stressful and causes breakdowns but when you decide that to follow your dreams that nothing is going to stop you from treading along that path. Then you realize that all the struggles are worth it. That you won’t trade having a dream for anything else in the world.

Failure? Yeah that comes with the territory.  But if  J.K Rowling hadn’t failed at life we wouldn’t have Harry Potter. If Alexander Flemming hadn’t failed to keep his equipment properly like he was taught, there would be no Penicillin, an antibiotic that changed the course of medical history. Failures are hard and I wish I had a magic wand to make it okay (Maybe someday!)

Dont worry about failures though your dreams are stronger than you realise. A little nagging voice in your head won’t let you give up. Even if you give up ,You will find a way to motivate yourself to get back up again.

So What  is it that keeps tossing and turning all night? Is it worries of the past or is it the desire to change the world?

Have you discovered what you are meant to do? Or like me you are still searching ?

Whatever it is  , hold on to it  and it will show you the miseries and beauties of our world.

A journey through time…

I have this fantasy where I would like to just sit on a cloud and take a journey through time. I would like to Watch from above my life as it has happened in the last 21 years.

I want to see being the center of gravity of the whole house. I want to see the extended family center their lives around the schedule of a two year old

I would munch popcorn as I watch my five year old struggled to write the letter ‘M’ and sob for hours.

I wish to see myself playing on the jungle jim unaware of fear.

I would try not to hide my face as I watch over the day I was punished for the first time and experienced humiliation that I can still feel sometimes.

I would swirl past the moments where I believed my first crush not reciprocating my feelings was the most tragic thing that could happen.

I would see myself wanting a cellphone more than anything else. I would try not to  yell at my 12 year old self and tell her that Life without a cellphone is a blessing you won’t be able to afford in next 7 years. 

I will think about The Avengers and The Holiday I watch myself convinced that Home Alone 2 is the best movie I will ever see.

I would spend some time Watching my first kiss from a distance. I think my nerves would feel as jittery as they did then.

I think I would laugh as I see my first love promising he would me never let me go.

I would look at myself crying and disappearing into my tears when he did.I would feel comfortable then knowing that it wasn’t that god hated me as what I believed then. It was just an inevitable rite of passage.
I would see myself worry about my future and Then smile as it all works out in the end.
I would do all this If I could I would sit on a cloud and go on a journey through time….